Cloudy days.

So you are on a path to make a change in your life. No matter what it may be or what direction you have decided to take, you are making a change to your current situation. It is scary and you can put it off, however you keep going because you know deep down you have to.

Because of the path you have chosen, you  absorb as much as you can from those around you, your mentors, those you have been there and done that, and it can get a bit intense. You may faze out, or end up in a thick fog.

I do. It keeps happening, but I allow it to happen rather than panic because I know I have to allow for my brain, conscious and subconscious process it all.

Overwhelm then comes crashing through the door and then nothing, zero, zip. A grinding halt. Again I let it rather than fight it (other will differ, it depends on what suits). Yes it takes a while to build back the momentum, but coming out the other side when the fog has cleared is clarity. With clarity it does not take long to be firing again on all cylinders and so building momentum is less of a struggle.

Some days are different. I often have to gather up a fair bit of strength to push on through so as to at least take one action if that is all I can rustle up.

Monday was a classic. Had a great start (always at the gym in the mornings after a meditate) and it went a bit downhill before lunch. By 5pm I still hadn’t done what I intended to do.

Instead of moping about it I was determined enough to get up off the sofa, get back in front  of the computer and at 8.30pm I was done.

I don’t recommend dinner in front of the computer however it’s hugely helpful having a husband who cooks it and delivers it to you so you don’t actually have to move.

What was really strange about the whole thing was I felt as if I was in ‘the zone’. I only realised it afterwards but where I would normally be distracted and looking elsewhere and listening in on the TV next door. I actually shut it out. My mind closed it off and I continued on. I could feel myself saying “I will just get this done and then I’ll go next door”. I could hear excerpts of the programs but I didn’t ‘tune’ into them.

Anyway, just a realisation. And it is an awesome feeling that I can be like that and it can be like that. I just have to harness it and turn it into pill that will sell for $millions!

Until next time,

Antonia